The most important decision I have made, till date…!!!
Summers were nearing its end.
I was at my home relaxing when the postman delivered the mail to me…
"a call letter from Training Ship Chanakya" – it changed the course of my life…(at least from what I had visualized till then).
I had prepared for engineering for two yrs and was decently dedicated towards studies. had given quite a few competitive exams, had a lot o plans, etc etc.
Well there it was, in front of me – a choice… engineering or merchant navy…???
I was aware of such a possibility occurring in my life but I kind of never wished to confront the situation. I had just wished to take what comes my way, not that I believe in destiny or fate… but because of the fact that for a person who finds deciding between two t-shirts difficult… this task was gigantic…!!
I was torn between two major sects of desires (for I kind of just knew that these two cannot be brought down together, at least not wholly) … the ideal one, in which you wish to yield something productive out of your career interests to do things which you believe appear interesting to you, and secondly to Experience life… in the maximum possible worldly scenarios… that is to enjoy and to suffer…!!
I chose navy…yes I did.
and was it a difficult task for me to decide?.. a tough decision?.. (well I've even understated the question…) … I had a traumatic time deciding.
standing on the roof… getting drenched in the rain…staring at the pastures, the fields… the water.
Weighing down options… calculating the amount of happiness, sadness and satisfaction each option will imply…
I had a liking for science… theoretical physics… wanted to study the several dimensions man has forged for himself from which he can observe.
but then I first wanted to actually experience… experience the ambience we have created for ourselves, in contrast with the raw nature… experience by myself this one life we're aware of(!) without any preconceptions, before I start forming my own beliefs.
and it was not until recently that I could put all this story (the introduction, the final take, and kind of justification) into just one line…
"
Experience transcends Belief"